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Forget About It
03:11
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I roll down the window and call out your name
I look around but you’re not there
It’s all in my head and it’s raining
I roll back the window and stare
I’ve started wearing my warmest clothes
Novembers rolling around
And you’re lying in a hospital bed
Filling bottles, fireworks no sound
I give myself a chance to breath
Trapped in my skin im my own worst enemy
And I do the same things, I make the same mistakes
You say just forget about it
But I don’t think of anything else
I’m falling apart in my bedroom, I’m building walls around myself
I feel the weight of a decision that you made
When you left to make yourself happy
I feel the weight of a person I never hoped id be
And I do the same things, I make the same mistakes
You say just forget about it
But I don’t think of anything else
I’m falling apart in my bedroom, I’m building walls around myself
Scratch my throat and tear away my skin
Revealing words to scared to say within
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Hate My Brain
02:44
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Take a smoke, take a breath
Breathe in deep till you feel it in the pit of your lungs
Take a ride with the people you love to a place you don’t want to go
Take my hand, I’ll let go of the wheel
Steal my heart while we veer off the side of the road
Take these thoughts from inside my head and throw them on the fire
Say something, say something because I have nothing to say.
I hate my brain but that’s ok
Knowing that I get to see you at the end of the day
I take a drink to medicate
The thoughts inside my head
You’ve been down for so long started taking its toll on your health
I’ve been searching for someone to save me from myself
I have a spare afternoon with nothing to do
I don’t want to see anyone I don’t want to do anything
I want to sit inside my room, sit and listen to something on the radio
Sit inside my room, inside my room I will think of you
Say something, say something because I have nothing to say
I hate my brain but that’s ok
Knowing that I get to see you at the end of the day
I take a drink to medicate
The thoughts inside my head
Bury my head in the sand, head under water feel my lungs collapse
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3. |
New Years Eve
03:11
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Swap the doses that you’re taking, to make you feel alright
We made a patchwork of paper napkins to stop the bleeding from your eye
And you looked at me and you said I’m too drunk to drive
But we’re half way home so let’s take it slow and we’ll make it back alive
I want to pretend I’m having fun like on New Year’s Eve
I numb my brain along with everyone until we part company
Just shut up shut up I don’t want to see your face
Shut up Shut up another year of my life has gone to waste
It’s becoming clear that everything’s not quite the same
Because you would change your mind and I, I wouldn’t feel a thing
With a smokers heart and heavy breathing you’re fogging up my window
I begin to trace your hand around mine
I want to pretend I’m having fun like on New Year’s Eve
I numb my brain along with everyone until we part company
Just shut up shut up I don’t want to see your face
Shut up Shut up another year of my life has gone to waste
I’m flicking through my past mistakes
Bookmark the bad ones and I rip out the whole page
Reverse the words, rewire my brain
And grasp for something tangible to make me feel better again
I want to pretend I’m having fun like on New Year’s Eve
I numb my brain along with everyone until we part company
Just shut up shut up I don’t want to see your face
Shut up Shut up another year of my life has gone to waste
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Surf's Up
03:11
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Another year on and what have I done? What have I achieved?
I settle my debts and run from everyone close to me
And I’m holding back my anger and I’m choking on my lies
My legs don’t seem to work and I don’t feel alive inside
I just want to feel, I just want to feel alive
Let’s stop pretending this will be ok and all of this might go away
Let’s stop pretending this will be ok and all of this might go away
I’ve been running in circles, I’ve been staying up late
I’ve been drowning in my worry
I’ve been bathing in self-hate
I’ve been checking under the sofa for the remainder of my life
I can’t remember where I left it, I can’t remember what is right
I just want to feel, I just want to feel alive
Let’s stop pretending this will be ok and all of this might go away
Let’s stop pretending this will be ok and all of this might go away
All these conversations and all these complications are messing with my head
Its 12 o’clock and its cold outside and I can’t seem to find the time I’m just stuck in bed
I just want to feel, I just want to feel alive
Let’s stop pretending everything’s alright
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Repeat
02:23
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I should speak my mind
I should speak the truth
I should see my friends
And I should say that I forgive
But I’m wrapped up in my worry whilst I’m wrapped up in your arms
Pull the covers over my head return myself to dark
Follow my feet to the place where I ought to be by now
Spill your heart on my sleeve spill my beer on your shoes
I’m struggling to breathe whilst I’m drowning in your living room
And I’m falling over the pavement while I’m falling for your life
Lie on my back and stare at the sky I can’t do anything right
Repeat, Repeat, Repeat, Repeat
Repeat the day over and over inside my head and ill repeat my name in the bathroom mirror toothpaste on my face
Repeat the day over and over inside my head and ill repeat my name in the bathroom
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